I'm doing OK!

I just wanted to let all of you know that I am doing OK and getting better slowly but surely! You all know I have had some rough times, and I know those rough times are coming to a close but new ones will emerge. But for right now, right at this moment, I'm doing better than I have been in many years. Nothing is perfect or easy, and I think I'm ready to let that ideal go. I am starting to recover from perfectionism and beginning to find myself.

Clearing away the clutter and organizing my home is helping to organize and clear away my soul. I still have things to work through and I probably always will, and that's OK because that is who I am.

The BIG Clean Up

I don't know if I have told you all about my clean house idea: to clean four times a year versus just one. I was thinking that if I could clean every equinox and solstice, I would have a much cleaner house all year-round and be much happier for it. Spring would be the big junk drop with a HUGE yard sale (more info on that to come).

So...we are starting to BIG clean during the stereotypical Springtime (been doing a lot of things that way this year, why stop now?)

We are going from room to room and eliminating things we don't need or use. We plan to do our town's community yard sale and come home with NOTHING! (except for a couple of larger items if they don't sell). We are going to take that money to make and keep our home more organized with new closet set-ups, kitchen drawer pull-outs, and the like. We are also going to spruce up our home with paint to reward ourselves a job well done!

Our inspiration is coming from the Clean House show we recently got hooked on. It has given us the motivation we needed to get started and continue on! We don't think we're as bad as some of the folks on that show, but we definitely have the tendencies. With the Pack Raticus (Pack Rat in layman's terms) genome running rampant in our souls, we need a good push more often then I would like to admit.

So, tell me. What do you think? Good idea or bad idea?

YAY! Muffin Me! :D

Muffin Top

I reached yet another goal this week...I "fit" into my First Date pants! So, okay they didn't exactly fit but I was able to put them on, which I haven't been able to do since 2005!



 But I pretty much look like this when I put them on...I got them on though!


OH! And another thing....

An unspoken goal I have had was to be able to get up from a sitting position without grunting...and I haven't noticed that I haven't grunted ONCE for like two weeks or more! LOL!

YAY Me!!

Month 2 of THE Dress Saga

Sorry for the sour puss look...long day

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Hey! smile why don't ya!

 Hey there Blythe fans! (just kidding) so it is month two of the ongoing THE dress saga where I put on the dress I got married in (see other post for further info) and see how it fits.

THE dress still fits snugly, but my husband (probably hoping to get on my good side) thinks that I am looking a bit thinner in this month's photos versus last month. I cheated a bit because the pictures on the left hand side are of me standing normal and the ones on the right are of me sucking in my gut!

I suppose you can be the judge on how things are looking. I still can't zip up the goofy side zipper and there is no way I would be allowed outside wearing THE dress but it's still early in the game, and anything can happen.

Leave advice, tips, words of encouragement/discouragement, or whatever happens to be on your mind in the comments. Thanks everyone! See ya next month dress...for now, back in the Hope-It-Fits-Later closet...ya, I have one of those...don't you?!

So Happy I Cried!!

Thumbs up for accomplishing my very first real goal!

Okay, so this one is a little blurry but I had to show it first to let you know fitting into the roller coaster ride was a SUCCESS!

















 You can't see it very well, but I am trying to control myself in this

We all just looked back at someones flash photography

 picture because I was so HAPPY!! I wasn't sure I was actually going to make it. I prayed extra hard this morning to be able to fit in this ride, and I DID!

I know there were prayers and fingers crossed for me and I thank you all for that! Of course, after looking at these pictures I had to stop myself from beating myself up for how big I looked. BUT I made it folks!! I actually accomplished a goal I set out to complete! One that I did not keep to myself and let the whole world I was attempting. This has NEVER happened for me.
A friend pointed out that I have made goals and completed them in the past even if I didn't go out of my way to make sure it was done. But I never set out a goal (and stuck to it) that included anyone else. This was for my son just as much as it was for me. He has been looking forward to going on this ride just with me and I did not want to let him down. And I didn't. I made it. WE made it.

Just One of THOSE Days

Do you ever look in the mirror after knowing you have lost a chunk of weight and see something that looks like this?

But when you go and have your picture taken you realize what you really look like is this?!

This was my experience over the weekend...unfortunate too because I had been given a LOT of compliments by very kind friends and family who hadn't seen me in person for a while.

I know, the positioning of my body in the photo could have a lot do with the outcome but it was still a blow to my ego!

Another blow is that in just 3 days from now, I will be testing out my VERY FIRST GOAL of fitting into a goofy little kid ride for my son's birthday party. I still have my doubts because I live by doubting apparently, BUT I still going through with it! How could I not when my kid is looking forward to it so much?! Wish me luck and I will let you know how it goes!

What the NECK is that?!

do you remember all those diet jokes on Garfield where he couldn't even see his own toes? I'm not worried about toes right now (whatever those are) I am more concerned about my collar bone!

I've been so fluffy for so long, I don't remember when the last time I saw my own beautiful collar bone! Since my health kick, I've been trying to get it to pop out but no amount of body maneuvering could encourage the little guy to show...until TODAY!

I make a lot of funny faces in the mirror from turtle neck to...












thumb head. All of them done by tucking my head into my current neck fat to see what grotesque being I can become.


But today I was stretching out my neck (heh heh) in a seemingly vain attempt to see my decolletage and I was blessed with a sneak peek of the wonders that are to come.