Fallen Angels

Currently there are three little girls (and one currently in a coma) and two families who loved them that have gone back to their Father in Heaven. These families are in need of your prayers and support. Please visit this site for more information on how you can help. Thank you.

I've Had A Bad Day

Have you ever had one of "those" days? Yeah, me too. It's just some of "those" days happen more than I'd like to acknowledge or come too soon after the last one that it's been difficult to recover as quickly as I would like. So it's been kinda hard to keep a smile on my face during adversities and to be a good example to those around me (although I'm not sure about ever being a good example. lol).

Sometimes I like to whine too much about these days or because I'm so overwhelmed I make them into something more than they are (but I bet you haven't experienced anything like that. lol). For example, I am trying to be more self-reliant by taking hold of my life and the things in it and taking responsibility for the every day things most people (including myself) take for granted. But it's really difficult when I see others skating by and taking advantage and doing so, easily! OR if when I am readying myself for another leap of faith toward my self-reliant goal, God decides to push me off the ledge because He thinks I'm more ready than I do. Those times are the most difficult.

So, if you ask me I'm doing, or how's my day going, just know it's been hard lately and I'm trying to smile through it all but I'm probably going to go cry in the bathroom for a while until I can release enough stress to move forward.

I QUIT! (but in a good way)

I am so frustrated with trying to keep up with other people's idea of how things should be! From diets, food, eating, and exercise to how to raise my kid, teach my kid, make my marriage successful, people always have an opinion and somehow mine doesn't jive.

I QUIT!!!

I am just learning about the way I eat and why (kind of sad because I'm almost 36 years old).

I'm just finding out what foods I do and don't like (like I really don't like M&Ms or apple pie. Sacrilege? Maybe, but that's how I roll).

 I've understood my body better than any doctor (or friend or well-meaning passerby-er) and so instead of trying new things that don't seem to work, I will go back to the old things that worked in the past and seem to be doing just fine currently.

I am with my kid 24 hours a day, 7 days a week and I'm pretty sure I understand as much as I'm going to right now. There are always going to be things that perplex me, but I know I will learn just as he is learning.

I don't have the world's greatest love affair, but I work at it every day. I don't need to hear how your new-fangled idea you read about on Pinterest is making your married life better and how I should try it out. I'm glad it works for you, but it's just not for us, and that's okay.

I QUIT!!!

I'm not looking at people and wishing I had whatever they have. My motivation for my desired body shape is something I once had and feel I can get back to. This does not involve my legs being the same width as my forearms, but something I feel is attainable and healthy.

I QUIT!!!

I'm currently trying to achieve a simplistic lifestyle...comfortable but simple. I don't have the need for big and fancy. I have the need for simple and easy. I don't need the kitchen appliance most believe is the sign of true wealth and ease. I use a wooden spoon (or my hands) and a bowl I've had in my family since 20 years before I was born!

I'm quitting (notice I haven't reached my full potential quite yet) the world's view of what is good, better, best and becoming more self-sufficient (and defining that for myself). I'm trusting more on the Lord instead of others that may not care for me as much as He does. I go to my knees for answers instead of the Internet. I trust in myself and my abilities and gifts from God more than I can or should people who don't even know me, but really, really like the thing I "pinned" today.

I still like the modern things of the world, but I am learning the meaning of "all things in moderation" and "self-sufficiency" and what those mean to me.

April THE Dress: All zipped up!

This is me in THE dress for the month of April.

                                                         Still not the most flattering of dresses...YET!

BUT I was able to zip it all the way up!! I haven't been able to zip this up since my wedding day! But here I am, all zipped up! :)

For the Love of Food

Despite my size, I am not a lover of food. In fact, I kind of hate food. When I eat I barely notice the taste, in fact over the past few years I've noticed more texture than flavor. When I eat I try to get the task done as soon as possible rarely savoring the food.

But now I have been given a different way of thinking and a new outlook on the whole eating thing. I am having to learn to eat without judgement or anyone else's food or eating issues but mine. You may think that sounds crazy but most people don't realize the problems they have with food.

Right now I'm acknowledging my issues, confronting, and conquering them...slowly but surely.

A "Feet" Unto Itself

Bending over and tying your shoes is probably many of you have taken for granted. Or bending over to tie your shoes WITHOUT making horrible grunting noises.

It has been another silent goal of mine to accomplish the bend-over-without-grunting task and to add shoe tying to all of that, well let's just say, that would be icing (non-fat, sugarfree of course) on the (same) cake.

Last week, amongst all the happy angst in our family, I found myself bending over and tying or strapping on shoes without a sound! At first, I took it for granted until I wondered to myself if I had been doing this all along! I realized I haven't grunted to get up or move (with the exception of this last week of recuperation)!

This may sound like child's play, but for an owner of a chubby tummy, accomplishing such a thing is a feat unto itself. I may not look like how I think I should, but with this revelation and goal checked off the to-do list, I'd say I am well on my way! YAY ME! :)

Aging Gracefully

Is it weird that I'm liking this aging thing? I see myself in the mirror and I don't mind what I see! I could look a bit thinner, but I'm working on that. But aging, the stuff I really have no control over, has been working for me. I'm actually excited to turn 40 (happening in about four years). I only have hang-ups on age because I want to have more children and doctors and hospitals tend to freak out over 35ers having babies. But other than that I truly excited for the future. Is that weird or are there more people out there like me?