Friday, May 15, 2009

Arizona Update:Rough Ride Ahead



The people here in Arizona (doesn't matter what area) are extremely kind. The people at The Center bend over backwards to make your stay as comfortable as possible. The people at the Homewood Suites treat you like the favorites in the family. So why do I cry everyday? Why is Christopher difficult to handle most of the day? Why are all the things that would make my day just a little bit easier not easy? And why am I the one that's a wreck and not Ben? I'm not the one with cancer, but I feel like I'm the sick one.

I wish we didn't have to go through any of this. I was hoping that after a hard time trying to bring a child into our lives that we would be able to just have this time to learn to be parents and not everything else. It's already difficult learning to be a parent and we have already had a pretty rough few years, so I thought Heavenly Father was finally going to give us a break, but I was wrong. I'm mad. I'm frustrated and I feel alone.

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  1. "Life Is Sweet"
    Natalie Merchant

    It's a pity
    It's a crying shame
    Who pulled you down again?
    How painful it must be
    To bruise so easily inside

    It's a pity
    It's a downright crime
    But it happens all the time
    You wanna stay little daddy's girl
    Wanna hide from the vicious world outside

    But don't cry
    Know the tears'll do no good
    So dry your eyes

    Your daddy he's the iron man
    A battleship wrecked on dry land
    Your mama she's a bitter bride
    She'll never be satisfied,
    And you know
    That's not right

    But don't cry
    Know the tears'll do no good
    So dry your eyes

    They told you life is hard
    It's misery from the start
    It's dull and slow and painful

    I tell you life is sweet
    In spite of the misery
    There's so much more
    Be grateful

    Who do you believe?
    Who will you listen to
    Who will it be?
    It's high time that you decide
    In your own mind

    Tried to comfort you
    Tried to tell you to be patient
    They are blind
    They can't see

    Fortune gonna come some day
    All gonna fade away
    Your daddy the war machine and
    Your mama the long and suffering
    Prisoner of what she can not see

    They told you life is hard
    It's misery from the start
    It's dull and slow and painful

    I tell you life is sweet
    In spite of the misery
    There's so much more
    Be grateful

    Who do you believe?
    Who will you listen to
    Who will it be?

    It's high time you decide
    It's time you make up your own sweet little mind

    They told you life is long
    Be thankful when it's done
    Don't ask for more
    You should be grateful

    But I tell you life is short
    Be thankful because before you know
    It will be over

    Cause life is sweet
    And life is also very short
    Your life is sweet

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