Arizona Update:Chain Gang

Each link here represents a radiation treatment left for Ben. As you can see, there aren't very many left! YAY! So, hopefully we're done with treatments on the 26th of June and be on our way home sometime the following week! When we're done here we're home for a couple of months so Ben can recuperate before he has to go back for surgery. The surgery is the biggest hurdle to get over. We hope it will be a less invasive surgery that will cut out as little as possible. The doctors at The Center have high hopes that that's the way it is going to be. I'm worried it won't be so easy, but I'm sort of a pessimistic individual right now. I know I'm supposed to have a more positive outlook, but I'm still going through the grievance process. This is NOT how everything was supposed to be. And as much as Ben tries to reassure me that he won't die, the 20% chance that he could still lingers over my mind. Ben is also so vulnerable to illness because of the chemo. Now, I don't want that to be a deterant for anyone who would like to visit us when we finally make it home because we're going to need a lot of support. It just means that if you or your children are sick, let us know so we can have Ben put a mask on to protect him. But we still need people to come over and visit as much as they can. Ben is pretty weak from all the treatments and we won't be able to get out much and poor Christopher won't have his fan club surrounding him daily like before. :) But Ben is the "ever-positive" guy and trying to have that rub off on me. I just want to get the surgery done with. Then we just have chemo treatments to deal with pretty much after that. Those will last about 6 months or so, then he takes the test to see if the cancer is gone. So, as soon as we get home we will have 25% of this stuff done with! Can you tell I'm excited to leave? I'm all trunky and we still have two weeks or so to go! Oh well...it gives us both something to look forward to!