Friday, June 21, 2013

How Low Can You Go?

I have been having a bad week and a bad attitude to go along with it!
Things have not gone my way and next week's outlook doesn't look good either...
I told a good friend of mine just some of my grievances and she suggested I was being humbled. ME?! Need humbling?! YEP!

At first I was taken aback by her comment and then pondering truthfully I knew she was right, and that she was a VERY good friend for telling me! (Apparently I'm not an easy person who people can be straight-forward with, without fear of losing a limb) She told me that I should "just be". Just be humbled. Just be who I'm being molded into. Just be like Christ and turn the other cheek when life smacks me square on the jaw!

When she told me this, I sat in my car and cried. I wasn't hurt by what she said, I was scared. I'm being humbled in so many ways and have been for so long that I was hoping for a break soon. This advice lets me know that I'm just in the thick of it. ...bummer...

If realizing I still needed humbling wasn't humbling enough, the scale wanted to laugh at me and spit in my eye all at the same time today! But dutifully and humbly I walked into my meeting to receive my penance. After sitting there and stewing, the lead of the group and another good friend told me (without even knowing what was going on) that I was being too hard on myself. I told her that it's difficult not to after so many people for so many years have been just as hard on me. She said something that COMPLETELY changed my life. She said that I didn't have to be one of those people. Simple yet amazing!

So, even though my mood hasn't changed completely (I'm gonna need a pity party it up for another day or so) I have received some AWESOME advice! I know it was Heavenly Father's way of letting me know what's going on and how to better deal with it all, and for that I am truly grateful.